Awaken

Being content with yourself is a journey. It takes constant energy and attention everyday. And it’s quite the feat. Being content, let alone realizing that you already are and have everything you need and letting that be, is a process.

Most of us have learned to beat ourselves up and make ourselves suffer more than necessary through the cycle of our parents and ancestors far back trying to make us in their image rather than just letting us be as we are and learn in our own time and ways as we go.  It is no one’s fault that that became the norm, we can only start with what we’re given after all, but it is on us if we realize the issue and do nothing to better it. A lot of us have come to open up and see the breaks and cracks within ourselves and lives and the way society works; it is now up to us to heal, do, and be better, for ourselves firstly and for future generations.

The important thing to remember is that this, this journey, is yours, it is for you. You owe no one. No one. Not your family, friends, peers, colleagues, boss, no one. This is life. This is the chance you have right now to live, to be, to explore, to experience. Since the industrial age began we’ve come to this space in which having a job and working ourselves to death for money to get by for the few in power is the way of life and the way of the world. Forget that. That is not life nor the purpose of life.

We have to know ourselves, our worth, what we do and do not deserve. We have to go back to the time of knowing and living our truths. We have to remember the true purpose of life, to live and experience, to love and be loved, to enjoy and savor. Long ago, we lived with the Earth and her creatures, we respected everyone and everything. We’ve never been societies definition of perfect, which does not matter anyway, at all, in any shape, form, or fashion; but we lived according to our personal flow and connected spiritually with each other, all given to us, and life as a whole. It is time we return.

In this day in time, we are experiencing something that has not been done in a long time, not in this way, and not to this degree. We are experiencing personal freedom, true unity, and genuine acceptance. It is alarming and foreign to many of the older generation, save the few who are and were awake the whole time or eventually became aware, though it is beginning to spread like wildfire. It is the balance of life. For too long has separatism, hatefulness, greed, and willful blindness run rampant. We are entering a new era of peace, unity, acceptance, care, kindness, goodness, justice, honesty, truthfulness, consciousness, self-awareness, self-care, self-acceptance, self-love, and pure joy.

The point is, begin your process. Begin and live your personal journey. Start and don’t stop for anything or anyone. When you make a mistake, acknowledge it, accept it, do your best to be and do better, and if you’ve hurt someone, apologize, mean it, and make a concerted effort to not make the same mistake. Do not beat yourself up, even if you do make the same mistake repeatedly and in general. It does no good and helps neither yourself or others to prolong and worsen your suffering. We all have to go through   trials and obstacles, we all have to hurt and feel pain because it is a part of life and contributes to making life the beautiful, insane experience that it is. It is necessary just like good times, simple times, and enjoyable times.

Repeat this as necessary: “I am not my thoughts, emotions, sense perceptions, and experiences. I am not the content of my life, I am Life, I am the space in which all things happen. I am consciousness. I am the Now. I Am.”* I am not my body, other peoples expectations, other peoples wants, other peoples judgments or opinions. I am what, who, and how I choose to be. I am that I Am.

You are a beautiful, unique, special, incredible, wonderful being. You are not from this life, you are just visiting for a while. Enjoy your experience here. This is all temporary. Make the most of this moment. Show up and do your best, that is all that is required. You have to care and you have to try, continuously. Nothing is certain and you can not be given what you already have. Use your focus, will, power, grit, perseverance, and love to guide you. You are a free spirit that cannot be contained. You are a light that can never be dimmed by another. The only thing standing in your way is you. Find a way or make a way. Flow and grow. You are love, so be it.

*Quote from Eckhart Tolle

I Am

I am not defined by people’s expectations and standards of who they think I should be. It’s not my job, or purpose, to please everyone.
I am not a slave to be worked like a mindless machine that has no hopes and dreams.
I am not a prisoner to a system that tries to tell me who I am, how to live, what to do and say, and how to be.
I am not bound to the mundane existence people in “high” places try to force me into.
I am not afraid to speak the truth and say what needs to be said, even if it is to ten thousand people who do not care to realize the truth. I will speak anyhow. You never know who your words may affect and how they may affect someone.
I am not easily influenced or swayed to think differently. Though I am opened minded and welcome different and new perspectives and ideas, I have a mind of my own that I like to put to good use.
I am not worried or concerned about what people think of me.
I am no longer afraid to be me.
I am no longer sorry for who I am.
I am no longer sorry for being who I am.
I am who I am.

Thoughtful Tuesday

Today’s post is something different. I like to write creatively so I thought I’d try posting something I’ve written. Hope you like it!
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The feeling of water caressing my skin,
The feeling of wind as it strokes my blemished cheeks,
The feeling of the brilliant Sun’s bright rays piercing my skin,
The cooling sensation my arms get when a cloud in the shape of an explosion passes before the Sun giving me a lovely break from the scorching heat of the glorious day.
It’s almost indescribable. Almost.
The feelings Mother Nature can evoke are truly a wonder.
Such beauty, such ferocity.
She is gracious, yet vengeful;
She is kind, yet unforgiving;
She is perfectly balanced.
I guess that’s why we beings have to struggle. If Nature itself has to be bound to better and worse days, we too must follow the laws of existence. The good, the bad, the happy, the sad, the cold and hot, things wanted and unwanted, the could and should, they are what we must face.
Oh to be alive. So wholly alive.
To feel water as it sways over my skin,
To feel the wind stroke my blemished cheeks,
To feel the vibrant Sun’s glowing rays touching my skin,
To feel the goosebumps on my arm’s as a cloud in the shape of an explosion passes before the Sun giving me a short break from the immence heat of the glorious day.
It’s almost indescribable. Almost.

                                         AJ💛